Duel

Karlie,

Since our last argument, we have pushed and pulled words of beauty and hatred freely between us, darling. I miss coming home to you, but not tonight.
Mother says “hello.” I will call you tomorrow afternoon.

Love,
Lucius

Another night, some drinks and too much talk about feelings again. My own were nowhere to be found in the conversation and instead, I walked out of the flat Karlie and I shared. The expression “I’m going out for fresh air” took on an urgency that made me overlook the cliché.

I had some time to think while I walked in silence for a few blocks. The night seemed inauspicious and gloomy, but it did not reflect my mood. Somehow, my frustration turned into a sarcastic smile that owed its appearance to Papa. I finally understood the man, but it was up to me to determine what to do about our similar conjugal woes.

Nothing magical or wonderful happened after my walk, but I knew it was up to me to challenge our views and transform our life together because I cared. If she wanted the same, she could do so as well but I could not wait. I went to bed for dreamless sleep. My side is always the left side, my dear.

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